“Crippled” – A Poem

“Crippled” – A Poem

Note: This is my very first amateur attempt at writing a poem, so please don’t judge me, I just wanted to put my feelings in (not so accurately) rhyming words.

Also I’d like to thank you in advance for taking out your precious time to read my silly poem :)

“Crippled”

The scars and wounds of my shattered past,

Have crippled my sense of trust,

I’ve been told to get over those memories,

In my heart I also know I must,

For there are people who truly love me,

And mistreating them is not at all just,

..

But the scars and wounds of my shattered past,

Have crippled my sense of trust..

..

I used to be carefree and serene,

There was nothing that could put me down,

But then came the winds of deceit and treachery,

Which dragged me from Heaven and slammed me on the filthy ground,

I looked about and realized I’m lying in a meadow of roses,

All blooming and lovely; O how they filled me with hope that was utterly profound,

But when I tried to pluck one away; well you know how it goes,

The thorns left me smothered in blood, and my trembling lips could no longer make a sound..

..

From that day on if anyone asks me; why so bitter and cruel, so ruthless and unjust?

I can only smile and say with my tears seeping down into the dust,

That the scars and wounds of my shattered past,

Have crippled my sense of trust.

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My Most Awaited Book-to-Film Adaptation

My Most Awaited Book-to-Film Adaptation

I have read many Young Adult fiction books in the past year. The Perks of Being a Wallflower (whose movie was just fabulous, although the book was better), The Hunger Games (one of the coolest adaptations I’ve seen, even though I didn’t like they cut-off all the violence to make it PG-13), It’s Kind of a Funny Story (the book and the movie both helped me through a very tough time in my life, God bless the writer and creators of the movie) and many other books who I wish were adapted on screen. Most of those books belong to a very special, talented and brilliant writer Mr. John Green.

Anything he writes is a work of art. His witty humor, his extraordinary characters, the unusual storylines, the way he digs deep in your heart and pulls the strings, and in the end you’re just left in awe. Looking for Alaska, Paper Towns, An Abundance of Katherines, all of them left me laughing and teary eyed. But there is one book I will always hold close to my heart, a book that left me speechless. A book that devastated me. A book that made my heart soar with sorrow and joy at the same time. That book was The Fault in Our Stars.

The Fault in Our Stars Cover

Here is an excerpt from the Goodreads page of The Fault in Our Stars about the plotline:

“Despite the tumor-shrinking medical miracle that has bought her a few years, Hazel has never been anything but terminal, her final chapter inscribed upon diagnosis. But when a gorgeous plot twist named Augustus Waters suddenly appears at Cancer Kid Support Group, Hazel’s story is about to be completely rewritten.”

This plotline description gives away NOTHING of the brilliance and intensity of this breathtaking novel. I won’t give away any spoilers for those who haven’t read it yet but I’ll just tell you this that I had never cried like a little baby while reading any book. It wasn’t just a “tear-jerker”, it was a “waterfall-of-blubbering-and-wailing-jerker”. For me atleast. I’m a big crier. Especially when it comes to love stories.

“It would be a privilege to have my heart broken by you.” – Augustus Waters

It wasn’t just your typical “girl with a scarred past meets a hunky bad boy and they fall in love” kind of romance. What makes this novel so brilliant and unconventional is that both the main leads are suffering from a life threatening disease. Hazel Grace has Stage 4 Thyroid Cancer (who has managed to fight it due to a medicine called Phalanxifor). Augustus Waters on the other hand has Osteosarcoma which is the most basic form of Bone Cancer (and he also is in remission).

The reader just knows they are doomed from the beginning but despite that we keep hoping that they never relapse and live happily ever after. Maybe they do, maybe they don’t. I would suggest you to read the book and find out for yourself.

“She is so beautiful. You don’t get tired of looking at her. You never worry if she is smarter than you: You know she is. She is funny without ever being mean. I love her. I am so lucky to love her. You don’t get to choose if you get hurt in this world, but you do have some say in who hurts you. I like my choices. I hope she likes hers.” – Augustus Waters

This is how I had pictured Hazel and Augustus in my mind. This fan made picture is just perfect <3

Hazel and Augustus

Only a short time after finishing the book I came across the news of a movie adaptation. And I was like “Whaaaatttt?? No waaayyy :D Oh my God oh my God oh my God!” like a little school girl. And the icing on the cake was that Shailene Woodley will be cast as Hazel and Ansel Elgort as Augustus :D

Shailene and Ansel

I mean look at them. It’s like a couple made in Heaven! I’ve been Shailene Woodley’s fan since she dazzled me with her performance in The Descendants and has already worked in another brilliant book-to-movie adaptation which gained her immense recognition from the lead role in The Spectacular Now (I still haven’t seen it, I plan to once it’s released on DVD). And plus she has also worked in ANOTHER movie adaptation of the book Divergent, which I am very very excited for. I don’t know much about Ansel (only this that he is also cast alongside Shailene in Divergent too) but he sure do LOOKS the role of Augustus. I hope and pray the TFiOS team does complete and utter justice to this magnificent work of art!

So yes ladies and gentlemen The Fault in Our Stars is my MOST awaited movie adaptation this year. Even Catching Fire comes on #2 for me. In the end I would share another heartbreaking and marvellous line from the book. Makes you wish someone somewhere was out there just waiting to say this to you :) <3

“I’m in love with you, and I’m not in the business of denying myself the simple pleasure of saying true things. I’m in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we’re all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we’ll ever have, and I am in love with you.” – Augustus Waters

The Only One Stopping You from Achieving Greatness is YOU!

The Only One Stopping You from Achieving Greatness is YOU!

Negativity. Blame. Regret. Shame. These are some of the destructive parasites in the world that not just hold you back but also try their best to crush your dreams. I must confess that I am a pessimist. I blame others or myself for everything that goes wrong in my life. I have regrets, and I am ashamed that I may not be that good enough. This is maybe the only reason I’m still not able to achieve my goals.

Negativity

A very dear friend of mine told me something yesterday, and I seek to work on it.

“Stop thinking negatively. It’s the only thing stopping you from achieving your dreams. Modesty is good, but underestimating yourself is NOT.”

Then I started thinking on it. I thought, when will I finally stop feeling miserable for myself? When will I stop playing the blame game and actually do something constructive? Will I spend my life’s each and every precious second on just thinking what I COULD HAVE done?

Life will keep giving me lemons and I will always think “Ergh where is the damn knife, how can I make lemonade when I don’t even have the knife to slice it, ooh I’m so miserable.”

NO!! I need to get up, grab the darn knife myself, slice that juicy lemon and squeeze the heck out of it. Every person in the world who thinks negatively is destroying their brain cells into something completely absurd. Thinking “I’m not good enough!” is practically one of the worst ways to annihilate your capabilities. What if you ARE bad at something? What if people don’t appreciate you? Does that mean that you’ll live life according to other people’s opinions?

Positive Thoughts

Every human born on this planet first learned to crawl, then stand, then start taking small steps, then walk and one day RUN! Do NOT be afraid of crawling. It will be dirty and messy but once you get a hang of it you will one day stand on your feet and in the end you WILL be the fastest darn runner anyone has ever seen in the world! You WILL sprint towards your dreams and your haters will be left behind you with the dust of your trail stinging in their eyes.

I would like to dedicate this article to that very dear friend of mine who has always supported me and motivated me. Thank you Friend! Thank you for believing in me. Thank you for standing beside me when the world seems bleak. You will always be cherished and will forever hold a treasured and deep place in my heart.

Reading A Game of Thrones

Reading A Game of Thrones

When I viewed the first episode of Game of Thrones TV show 2 years ago, I wasn’t impressed by it. I only saw the first episode and thought to myself “What is this?  This is not appropriate! I don’t want to watch this anymore.” And I didn’t… for one year.

Then after a year I just kept seeing all these amazing reviews all over the internet. Everyone was literally going crazy after it. So then I decided to give it another shot. When I got to know the honorable Starks, the terrible Lannisters and the fearless Targaryens, there was no stopping me. I binge watched it within 3 to 4 days. It has never ceased to amaze me. I had finally found a show that came equal to the  calibre of shows like Breaking Bad.

Game of Thrones Title

After finishing it, I realized;

“I can’t wait a YEAR for the next season, this is blasphemy, this is MADNESS!!”

So then I decided to buy the books and drink em’ all in ;) I have finished the first 2 books “A Game of Thrones” and “A Clash of Kings” and it has been a phenomenal experience.

Game of Thrones Books

Mr. George R. R. Martin is purely a genius. I have NOT read any book with this much depth and detail. From beautifully exploring the characters, to giving details about the surroundings and environments to the descriptions of food and clothing :D everything amazes me. Such a powerful and remarkable build-up of characters has not been seen in literature in recent years.

I must give a salute to the creators and writers of the show who have adapted these books to such an astounding way on screen. Staying THIS much true to the look and feel of the books is rare. Although there are some changes from the books to the TV show, but I think those were for the best and really gave the show an identity of its own. The books and the show are remarkable in their own way. Reading the books is completely a different experience and obviously far more superior to the show because you get an insight into each and every characters thoughts and feelings. You get to know why they do the things they do, which can never be portrayed with 100% accuracy on screen.

Personally I would like to recommend everyone to read the books. Watch the show first or read the books first it doesn’t matter at all. You will enjoy both equally on their own levels.

I myself will finish the 3rd, 4th and 5th books within the next 2 months and will get back to you with my review. I promise I will try my best to not spoil anything for you :P